It is night one, and it is freezing cold. I should have guessed, but I am surprised at JUST how cold it truly is. The hot springs and the drive over (From Denver to Hotchkiss) were both gorgeous. Clear blue skies, no traffic, soaked for 2 hours in the hot springs with no issues- not tired, no headache, etc. I was concerned I would get a headache before even getting here, concerned about the hot springs and the lack of food and water in my system. At this point, I have been fasting for almost 24 hours. I was honestly scared of going without. So much of my life and emotions and many of my coping mechanisms have been centered around food. I know for a fact that's why I avoided doing this vision quest for so long. But, I am choosing to be gentle on myself and forgiving of old habits, and willing to step forward into a new me that breaks patterns and heals old wounds. I am very committed to myself and the success of the next 3 days. I arrived at the cabin and I was so thrilled with it. It is secluded with beautiful views. I cleansed the space with cleansing spray and Palo Santo, and I called in the four directions to honor the sacred space that I will be creating over the next few days. I then prepared the Ayni Despacho for tomorrow's ceremonial fire. I plan to burn it before the sun goes down and before it gets too cold again... Brrrr! I will keep the directions open through the time I leave here on Sunday, which is also the February new moon! I'm excited to see what insights, knowledge, visions, and growth spirit has in store for me throughout the weekend and beyond!
